Burdened

In the name of Allah, the Most Merciful the Most Gracious. 
O Allah, 
Im feeling so burdened right now by someone else's feeling towards me. Am I leading him? Or did I gave him fake hope? I did not think so. 
I am surely not yet ready to commit in any serious relationship, and I dont think that I can have feeling for someone now. 
His act put some pressure on me. I am feeling guilty. I dont know what shall I do now Ya Allah? 
This is surely not a great feeling I am having at 6.15am in the morning. I cant ignore him because I am indebted to him. I am in dilemma. 
O Almighty Allah, guide me to the straight path as you know which path is the best for me. I am 100% to follow your guidance and to believe in you. 
Thank you, Allah. 

A-di-prince

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious the most Merciful. 

Last night, i had a conversation with a good friend of mine. We knew each other through social media, and i kind of making the move first. However, as time passed through i knew that i cant commit for another long term relationship, and i knew that i didnt want to be in any. 

I make it clear for him last night, because i kind of afraid he might get this "fake hope" and fall for me more. Amazingly, he understood everything and he accepted it. 

He said that, he doesnt want to force me to like him. and he knew that things can be taken a step at one time. In which, he asked me to not worry and there is no string attach between us. I can always make my own decision anytime, and he can too. 

Surely, that confession removed a huge burden from me. I felt reassured and content. He kind of the most understanding person i ever met. 

O Allah, 

In whatever way we both might find our soulmates. Make it in a way that you like. Make it in a way that is good for both of us. Make it in a way that ease us. 

Thank you Allah for another good friend you sent to me. Please protect him. 

2022!

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious the most Merciful. 

Dear Allah, 

Today is January 6 2022. I am un-officially 23. How fast time flies, sometimes i wish to go back in time but sometimes i also wish to go to the future. 

Alhamdulillah for 2021, i think i learnt so much and i grateful for everything that you let it happened for me. 

O Allah, 

I dont know and i will never know what you hold for me. But dear Allah, im to believe in you and to let you handle and guide me to a good path. A path where it leads for me to be near you, a path where it leads me to be with the person who loves you, a path where only good things and the best things happened. 

Allah, 

I am putting and letting go every confusion and un-sure feelings away. For I will strongly believe with every lane you open up to me. 

Bismillah for a better me in 2022. A better muslim, a better daughter, a better sister, a better friend, a better me. 

O Allah, ease everything for me in this year.